Friday, October 9, 2009


It's been an absolute eternity since I last wrote. So many things going on, but something has happened that has compelled me to write to the two people who are following my blog :)
Yesterday, after a rather difficult session with the psychologist, I was aimlessly wandering around the stores at the shopping centre, trying to find the will to get in the car to drive home. While I was in Emerald earlier in the year, Taylor Swift's new song, Love Song, was played ad nauseum on the radio - to the point where I was hearing it about six times a day - and I got sick of it pretty quickly. Since coming home, I don't listen to the radio much. All of a sudden, the song popped into my head, and I decided to buy the CD.
While driving home, I listened to the CD. And it wasn't Love Story that got my attention. It was a gorgeous little song called "Fifteen". Oh, my, goodness. I'm on the downhill to 30, but I remember 15, and I remember all the emotions Taylor talks about, and it brought so many memories to mind. Not all of them good, but it's our past, good or bad, that makes us the people we are today.
I've got regrets. I've done stupid things. I've hurt people. But it's part of growing - physically and emotionally - as a human. Everyone does it. But changing my past would change the person I am right now. It bugs me when people get up on their high horse and condemn others for having a dubious past or something. You know what they say about people in glass houses...*
But life is good too! I've met an amazing man, and I'm grateful every day that he's in my life. He takes care of me, even gets up at 6.30 every morning that I stay at his place, just to make my oatmeal with chocolate soy milk and a glass of juice, because he knows I drink tea too slowly to get it finshed before I have to go to work. He lets me sleep on the couch when I crash out after a big day at work, and wakes me up to go to the shower. He puts me to bed, and if he's going to watch TV or read, he waits until I've fallen asleep before he gets up. He did send me off to meet his parents by myself, but everyone has a flaw somewhere... ;o)
(* Apparently they say they shouldn't throw stones, but personally, I think that people in glass houses should probably get changed in the basement!)

Friday, May 1, 2009


I just can't believe how much difference a couple of months can make...

I'm doing really well with my therapy. I've got my fourth visit next week, and I'm finding it so beneficial. Lynette is a fantastic person, and she lets me talk about anything and everything, even if it's not related to my therapy!

I'm still having regular checkups with my doctor as well. He's happy that this medication is better for me. The last one made me sick 24/7. I've had a few side effects on these ones too, but nothing serious. Food tastes weird sometimes, which is a rare side effect, but it doesn't worry me. The doc checks my blood pressure every visit, because apparently these can increase it, but I seem to have gone the other way, and have low pressure!

I'm he happiest I've been in years. Of course I still have my moments, but everyone does. Just because I've got these issues, doesn't mean that medication and therapy is going to make me perma-happy, that's just not realistic. It's still hard at times - I went to a friend's dad's funeral last week, and I'm having work issues, but that can happen to anyone.

Onward and upward!

Sunday, April 5, 2009


No matter how hard we try, life often gets hard. It's no different for me. I've been learning not to try and take life three or four days at a time, so now I'm trying to slow the pace a bit, and take control of what I can. So I've taken a study break for the semester, which is doing me wonders.

I've been having some pretty full on panic attacks and stuff, so definitely feeling the pressure. Work has changed since one of my workmates left, and I was given his job. I'm enjoying the challenge, but it's definitely been a boots-and-all experience!

I had some difficulty admitting that I wasn't coping, but now I have, and I'm on the mend. With the help of my fantastic family and friends, I know I'll get through anything life can throw at me. I don't know why it took me so long to ask for help!

Life doesn't end when things get tough. If anything, life is going to get harder if you just ignore problems in the hope that they'll go away. There's nothing wrong with asking for a bit of help when things get beyond you. You're not doing anyone any favours, especially yourself, if you just suffer in silence.

Does any of this sound like you? Don't leave it too long, or you just might end up with bigger problems, just like I almost did.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Beginning again...

I'm at the start of a new stage of life... I'm not ready to go into details yet, but rest assured I'm doing fine. Actually, I don't know if anyone even reads this, so I may well be talking to myself!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Victorian bushfires

The news has been absolutely inundated with stories of survival, and of sadness. There are so many ways you can support the survivors of this devastation, so please, even if it's just one thing, check out some of these links to see how you can help... - the Australian Red Cross Blood Service's website. Book a bunk and donate blood. It doesn't even take an hour out of your day, it costs nothing and it can save so many lives. I donate blood every three months. - St Vincent de Paul Society of Australia's website. Find out about donating clothes, food and money. - Channel 7's breakfast program's website. Heaps and heaps of information about donating clothes, money, accommodation and breaking news about the fires - Victorian Country Fire Authority's website. The site is regularly updated. Apparently it's crashed several times, so they've asked if we can only check this site out if you need immediate information that isn't available on news websites - The Salvation Army's website. Another website that you can use to find out about donations

1800 727 077 - If you're concerned about friends or family, or if you want friends or family to know you're okay, give the Red Cross a call

1800 240 667 - The Victorian Bushfire Hotline will give you information about status of towns affected by the fires and information like school closures

180 22 11 - People affected by the bushfires are entitled to government assistance, so give them a call

If you want to make a cash donation, there are a couple of options. National Australia Bank is taking donations. You can call 1800 811 700, or make a direct transfer from your bank account to: NAB account BSB 082001 a/c 860046797

The other option is Bendigo Bank. Call 1300 366 666 or check out the website Or you can call 137 258 (menu option 2)

If you're a firefighter, you're desperately needed. Contact your local fire station or the Rural Fire Brigade to find out how you can help.

As of an hour or so ago, 131 people have been confirmed perished in the fires. The disaster is being reported around the world, and thank you to my friends overseas who have contacted me to make sure my family and I are okay. We're absolutely fine and in Queensland, quite a distance from the fires. It is now officially Australia's worst buhfires in history, surpassing 1983's Ash Wednesday fires.

Please, please, please... Australia, do anything and everything you can to help.


So far over $10 million has been raised. Coles (a grocery store in Australia) will also be donating Friday's profits to the Bushfire Appeal. Apparently there is more than enough clothing, etc. The best way to help now is to donate money. And of course, the Red Cross will always welcome more blood donors. Keep going, Australia!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Just a little rant...

You know, it really bug me when people tell me huge lies. I understand little white ones. Everyone does that at some point in their lives. "Oh, no, that shirt looks great!" or, "I'm putting that cheque in the mail right now." But big ones, uh-uh. And when your lies then implicate a completely innocent party... a party that doesn't even know they're involved... grrr... I feel desperately sorry for this innocent party. They've just made a huge decision and have absolutely no idea what it could mean for them down the track.

PS. A change is as good as a holiday, apparently,hence the new layout...

Monday, February 2, 2009

Well, didn’t I have an interesting Sunday morning!

I went to a friend’s birthday party. Much alcohol was consumed, much singing and dancing went on, and everyone had a great time. I retired to the Hilton (ie tent in the back yard) a bit after 3am. It’s hideously hot here, so I had the windows open and just the screen zipped closed. And it was a good thing...

A bit after 5am, I heard someone calling my name. I sat up to work out what was going on, when I saw my friend in a heap on the ground. Nearly slipping over and breaking my leg, I ran over to find her curled up in the fetal position on the grass. I woke up another friend to help me, and together we got her inside. To cut a long story short, a trip to hospital in the ambulance was ordered, and she is now recovering comfortably at home. Still not sure what happened, but as is usually the case in the Emergency Room, they treat the symptoms, and it’s up to your GP to treat the cause.

Me, I’m now on antihistamines for the horrific mosquito bites I suffered that morning! My feet, hands and arms are particularly bad, but even my legs were bitten through my jeans! Another friend told me her husband has just been diagnosed with Ross River fever, so I’ll have to take care of myself to make sure I don’t end up with it too!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009


You know something's going on when the boss say, "Bec, have you got a sec?", then asks you about your plans for next month. I instantly assumed, and correctly, it turns out, that I'm needed in Emerald. I said I'd do it, as long as I wasn't there for my birthday.

Turns out my birthday will be smack in the middle of the two weeks I'll be out there for. So they've very generously offered to fly me back home for the weekend of my birthday so my karaoke birthday party plans will not get canned, especially since I started sending invitations this morning!

Emerald isn't that bad a gig - they pay for my flights, put me up at a motel, and depending on which one it is, pay for room service. Every other time I've been out there, I've been offered a car, which I had to politely decline, since I didn't drive, but now I do! But seeing as how I'll only be there for one weekend, hardly seems worth the bother of travel. And it's not every day a girl gets on a plane four times in two weeks. It's a good thing I love flying!

Sunday, January 18, 2009

New addition to the family...

Since I can't have pets or children, thest best I can do is this...

I fried the charger of my old camera the other day, but it's had a good innings. I got a $100 gift voucher the other day, so I decided I'd go shopping and see what's around. I came home with this lovely little model. It's just a basic point-and-shoot, but it does what I need it to, so it's all good. It's 10 megapixel and a 2.7 inch display screen, so even blind ol' me can see what I've taken pictures of!
After having a bit of an anxiety attack on Thursday, I decided a little retail therapy was in order. It was $300, reduced to $250, so with the $100 voucher, it only cost me $150... Score!
Well, best go and get myself organised for dinner...
PS... Thanks for the heads up on the purple text... hope this is easier to read!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

First cab off the rank

Well, there's been a mass exodus from MySpace, which is where I've been blogging for the past few years, so I decided to jump on the Blogger bandwagon. And I can post photos here, which is much easier than on MySpace.

So this is going to be a short one, but I'll be back to fill you in on what's happening!